October 8, 2014 was a day that I had to decide if I wanted to have another endometrial ablation or a total hysterectomy - I decided on the total hysterectomy because I had just had the ablation at the end of June and my body had rejected the machine in both places the doc had placed it - we scheduled surgery on October 25 - my docs head nurse calls me earlier the week of surgery to warn me that my doc was gonna try and talk me out of having the surgery - one of the biggest reasons he didn't want me to have that surgery was because he was gonna have to cut me - see I have never had children - and that was a huge concern for him and another reason was due to scar tissue from another surgery - we debated back and forth - he wanted me to try the ablation again and I wanted to have the hysterectomy - well the doc decides that he wants to check my uterus one last time - so as he sets up the ultrasound and we look - something shows up that has never showed up in any ultra sound that I have had - my doc takes off his gloves and informs me that I now must have the surgery because I had adenomyosis - it's a form of endometriosis that gets in your uterine wall and never goes away - it only gets worse - the doc informs me that the ablation would of never worked - I had been living with pain from the third pit of well you know and the irregularity of my cycle - I was so excited - the doc gives me a hug and tells me that everything is going to be fine and that he would like to have me leaving the hospital on Saturday between 4 and 6 that evening - I go in Friday morning - I was a lil anxious but not too concerned - I had a talk with Jesus and asked Him if He would just make sure 2 things were taken care of - He took care of them so I had nothing to worry about - surgery went exceptionally well - I woke up from surgery in very little pain - I had a few visitors that day - I got one of my favorites candy (Reese's pieces) - the nurses had me up and walking about 10:30 that nite - I walked just a little ways and got hot I mean sweaty hot very quickly - I got up again in the middle nite to walk again - remember the doc had said he would like to see me go home the next evening - by 4:30 Saturday afternoon I had made about 5 trips around the hallway - my last trip around my doc was coming down the hall to see how I was doing - I remember him asking me how my pain level was - my response was it's ok - he said try again - at that time I said I was in pain - he said that's what I wanted to hear - he gave me pain killers to take home and said I could have my first shower on Sunday afternoon and to come in on Thursday October 31 to have the staples removed - he told me to take it easy - and no driving for 2 weeks - I took it easy and had no pain - I was good to go - on Thursday October 31 I was woke up by God and He have me a word that morning - He told me that sometimes the journey isn't for you but those around you - I woke up saying that and hearing that - I went back to sleep and was woke up bout 8 am with a phone call from my docs head nurse Crystal letting me know that the doc wanted me to come in at 2:30 that the doc had some surprising news for me - I was already headed in that day to have my staples removed - and you do not need an appointment to have them removed - so I wasn't concerned at all - honestly my thought was I had endometriosis - and then I got another call at 12:30 to let me know I didn't need to come in till 5:30 that he was running behind - Jennifer and I went to The Gravy for lunch and then headed to Wilmington for my appointment - I have my staples removed the doc looks at it and says it was healing really good - I go sit in the office with him and Jennifer - the doc proceeds to tell me that the technician missed it and that the pathologist almost missed it - the pathologist report came back that I had cancer - argh - I just said the dreaded "c" word - haha - yes I laugh - let's say it again don't be afraid - CANCER - my doc said he told the pathologist that he had the wrong patient because he had done several biopsies and they came back negative for cancer - the doc explained to me that my cancer had started growing on my cervix and had grown in a straight line to my uterus - my uterine wall was 2cm thick and the cancer had went 1.8cm through - the doc said it was slow moving and that he had no idea how long it had been there and how long it had been growing - my doc worked at John Hopkins and said he had he bet seen this in all his years working - see it (cancer) was found in my glands which is rare - my doc explained I had to go see an oncologist to discuss my options and what to do next - we left the doctors office and so e things started falling into place - I understood at that point why the ablation didn't work - I took it in - I absorbed the news and went straight into fight mode - in 23 days my life had done way too many dips curves, potholes - I just went into fight mode - I accepted it in the sense that I had it and it was done and gone - in my mind I was already in fight mode -
I leave you with this
Once a life changer happens to you - you have 2 choices - fight or give up - it's just that simple - nobody can make the decision for you - you are the only one who can decide - I'm not saying that once you decide to fight that it will be easy - any time you have a life changer happen and you decide to fight - you are gonna have highs and lows - you learn to fight harder on those low days -
Peace out........
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