Going to see a counselor is not something most people talk about. Seeing a therapist isnt something people do. Going to go sit for an hour and talk to a stranger, well thats just not what you are suppose to do.
Granted there are therapist, counselors out there that just want to prescribe you meds and be done. Those types will not do you much good at healing your heart and your mind.
I had to see a counselor to get my mind in a healthy place. I had to see a counselor to get the thoughts straight in my head. I had to see a counselor to validate that what I was feeling was okay, that what I grew up with caused my mind to not be a healthy place. Suicide, negativity, poor decisions, shame, low self esteem, no self worth well you get the picture! Those are just some of the things I had to deal with in order to get healthy.
I didn't list regret because to do so would be to change who I am and while I may not be ok with all my decisions but the results did make me who I am today. I cringe at some of my decisions and not taking enough chances.
My decisions were based off of childhood tapes being played in my head on a continuous loop. I didnt have a clear understanding of just how much that tape had played in my decisions. I had no real clue as to how much it affected my life. It wasnt until I was sitting in front of a stranger to talk bout what was in my head for me to understand the magnitude of just what my childhood had done to me.
In the next few posts you will read bout how I had to overcome depression, shame, no self worth. You will see how I came to love myself and learn about self respect. You will get to see how much I have changed to become the somewhat healthy woman most people see today. I didn't do this alone, I had help from God, a couple of counselors and close friends
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