Learning to move forward

     As I sit here, I realized I haven't wrote anything for a bit. It's that time of year where everything is crazy right now. I started this blog with the intent to talk bout my recovery in every aspect of my life. I met some very close friends a few years back and we have had some very interesting but deep conversations. I decided in 2010 (I think) that I told God I was ready to deal with my baggage. Since 2011 I have been dealing with my baggage, more to come on that in later writings. 

    It has been one year since my second surgery, this year has seen highs n lows. This past year I have been given 2 choices - fight or give in - I chose to fight, I chose to push forward. This past years a few very close friends have seen a side of me that very few if any has seen. Yes as superwoman I had bad days, I had days where I wanted to give up. Just recently I was reminded that on those bad days to think of where I was a year ago. 

    For some moving forward is easy and for others it's not so easy. In each of our lives we have had life  changers - it's those moments that define us. As you grow older and have your first "life changer" moment, you think to yourself I will never survive this. One day you wake up and realized you not only survived it but you came out stronger than when you went in. Then the next "life changer" happens and you first thought is again I'm not gonna make it but yet you do. In life we will always have life changer moments and they get harder as you get older. Each time you have a life changer moment you learn to move forward. You learn a little bit more about yourself after each event, and after each event you learn to push harder at moving forward because you realized you made it through the last life changer moment. So the next time you have a life changer moment, remember that you made it through the previous one and chances are you will make it through this one. 

      For me I have had my fair share of life changer moments, and there were times that I didn't think I was gonna make it. I learned to move forward, I learned to push past and learned a little bit more about me. I learned how to be strong, I learned that I would make it. This past year has been a major life changer moment, and yet so far I have survived. In the past month I have had yet another life changer moment and for awhile I really didn't think I was gonna make it but I am just now getting back on my feet to push forward. That's it for now, next up will be judging a book by its cover or not.......

Peace out tater tot