Why do things have to be hush-hush?

 Life is funny at times. When you have conversations with friends, it's different than when you talk to co-workers or even families. Then there is the conversations you have with your closes friend. So let me ask you a question, is everything on the table when you talk or do you just go to the line? Do you watch your words? Do you listen to hear or to speak back? Is any subject up for discussion?

I use to be one of those people who just listened, but I did listen so that I could help if I could. I use to be one of those people who would not discuss what was going on in my head, it was too scary at the time. I use to be one of those people that you just wasnt for sure bout what was going on, I was always helping others and being too active until there wasn't a choice but to confront what was in my head.

It was not easy getting help in the beginning, it wasnt easy to open up and talk bout what was in my head or maybe my heart of hearts. To allow someone to know my deepest pain. To allow someone to see the pain, the frustration was too much for me. No one ever listened before. No one ever took me seriously when I would talk bout what was in my heart and then I was expected to open up and talk? How?