Its a wild Wednesday

March 29th update. Today was a great day, did a little straighting up in my reading room. That made me feel really great as I stand in the doorway looking in the room. Today I actually got my wound vac put back on, we are also monitoring the top 2 tunnels as it is possible there is infection in there. I mean really, every day is an adventure of never knowing what I am gonna find when I take the dressing off. Right now the drainage is a yellow color, oh my...... As I lay on the couch stretched out, I have to clean my belly button before we put the wound vac back on. I look at my belly and say I am sorry, but it is looking good if only the tunnels will heal up. The pain is still here not as bad but still letting me know I still have issues. Lol I think I will always have issues. My home health nurse comes in and lets me know the docs are good with us putting the wound vac on for a couple of days and then letting my skin rest. I wish I could have it on 24/7 so the tunnels will here faster. Now I may have to have the wound vac a little longer than I thought. I am ok with it if I have to keep it a little longer. I am trying to stay positive and focus on today. So we are gonna keep the wound vac on today and see what my skin looks like on Friday when we take it off.------------------------------------------------------------------As I sit in my recliner eating pringles, I think about being strong, pushing through, surviving. Most days I will do that, most days I make it through. I will let you in on a secret, I don't see me that way. I just try my best to make it through each day. This is the second major medical journey that I have been on. I have been through minor medical journeys since the first major one again I just push on. Its the only thing I know how to do. Now don't get me wrong I have bad days. The first medical journey I wouldn't allow myself to have any bad days. It was during the minor journeys that I realized its ok to have bad days just don't stay there. This current medical journey I have had bad days and I allow them, but only one bad day. I would text a friend and would list what I didn't like then just kinda chill on the couch for the day. The next day I would wake up and everything would be ok. I would be able to have the strength to push through and have a better day. The bad days that I have are few and far between and I have learned its actually healthy to accept the bad day when it happens as long as its only one. If you start to have more bad days in a row then I would suggest you talk to a close friend about what is going on. When going through a medical journey and having too many bad days is never a good thing. You can not fight the bad days and then have the strength to fight the medical journey as well. My hope as you read my updates is to bring encouragement and let you know you can make it!!!! Peace out