Busyness? Yes and/or No?

Some people will say you shouldn't have a busy mind, while others will say it's ok. I say both is correct at least for me. A very good friend mentioned that at times he has to have a busy mind and I knew exactly what he was talking bout. For years, like many years I had a busy mind. Always helping someone, always thinking bout how to help others and who to help next. It kept the inner most thoughts at bay. It kept the demons at bay even though they were just below the surface ready to strike at any given time. My thoughts were always negative and never good about myself. My thoughts were always on ways to leave this crazy world behind. It took me going to therapy to fully understand that by having a busy mind I was ignoring my own issues, it was a coping mechanism. It took me finally opening up to someone bout my inner most thoughts to be free. See, when I tried to open up before people wouldn't take me serious, they would laugh or even make jokes. This lead to even more thoughts of how to get out of this world. If those people couldn't take me serious, then why am I even here? So I kept a busy mind until therapy. I was "forced" (I use that term loosely) to look at my thoughts. To dissect them and deal with them. Midway through therapy I started learning bout quieting my mind. I started to appreciate the quietness of my mind. I could then start going over my thoughts and tossing out the ones that didn't belong or even fit. You know the ones I'm talking bout, the minute they enter your brain you feel uncomfortable, that's how you know they don't belong. Then I learned bout when to have a busy mind and when not to. Some days I needed and still need a busy mind. It keeps the ugly thoughts at bay until I can deal with thrm. A busy mind will keep those negative thoughts tucked away. A busy mind is sometimes a blessing as long as you are using it for the good of your soul and mental health. A busy mind is good as long as you recognize that you are not ignoring your own thoughts. Today stop and ponder on that for a minute or 2. For me today is a quiet mind kinda day, I am tired so therefore a quiet mind is a must. I have learned that when I am tired I get a busy mind and the thoughts are never good. When I am tired I do not have the strength to fight the busy mind..... Till next time my friends